When we first decided to name our worship band "Broken," I really didn't like it. Since then, I've been thinking about it, and going back and forth between various degrees of love and hate. On the one hand, there is the attitude expressed in Evanessence's song, Going Under:

The speaker conveys an attitude of resistance. There is some impersonal presence ruling over her, and although it's rescued her before, she's sick of being dependent. It is restraining her, pushing her down every time she starts to rise on her own. It forces her to play a part she never chose. When she finally begins to break free, there is a struggle, but she is determined.

I have to admit that I feel this way sometimes in my attitude toward God. Sometimes He'll want His way and I'll want mine. My heart cries, "No! I WONT BE BROKEN AGAIN!!!"  I get sick of the back and forth. The waiting, the wondering, even the revelation... I get to the point where I feel like I've just had enough, as if I've got this all-powerful boss who has me on a string so I can't do anything that I want to do. I get this attitude that I do so much for Him while he sits up there observing and just waiting for me to screw up.

The words to 12 Stones' Broken, however, express a very different attitude.

It is then I realize how ridiculous I must sound. It is then my attention is called back to the cross and all that God has done just so I could come to Him. I think about how my attitudes affects Him instead of how His rules affect me, and how much more useful I could be if I'd just TRUST HIM and allow Him to break me. In another paper I'll use this concept again with reference to clay. For now, that's all thats on my mind.